I still haven't put my finger on it... but I can tell you... if I had been anywhere near this horse. He would have been mine, that very day. But, as fate would have it... he went to my new friend... And thank God he did.
Just look at him now...
WHAT A HANDSOME MAN!! I am so in love with him.
The BF had court today. Not exactly the outcome I had hoped for. I was hoping it would just be over. It's not exactly over... but it's the beginning of the end, so that is good. I think he's been waiting for this to be over... so he could pop the question. I'm good though, I'll wait. Fate will be what it will be... married or not. I couldn't be happier with him and if we never marry, that's ok too.
My body feels tired today. It's tired of carrying 300 lbs around. Can you blame it? I'm hoping that by Christmas Day... I will feel well enough to ride. O how I can't wait for that day!
I am almost to the point with my co-worker that I am no longer going to be able to bite my tongue. I've worked with her for 3 years. I know her pretty well, or I did when she was still talking to me. Quite frankly, she's a dumbass. No really, all the lights are not on upstairs... and it really makes me nuts. But, on top of that... she has the holier than thou thing going on. Every morning when I get in, she has christian music playing. Now, I don't begrudge Christians... because I am one. But this lady... OMGosh... she is... a peice of work. I believe in God... and I also believe I'll keep my beliefs to myself. Do you believe she had the balls to tell someone that I was not ready to have surgery because I haven't learned how to eat? I can't tell you how my heart sank when I heard that, it really hurt my feelings. But what the truth is... is she doesn't think I deserve it because I'm not as Christian as she is. Can you believe that shit? How Christian is she now? Now, here's the kicker... she has a lapband... and her breakfast consists of a candybar and a dr pepper. Mine is an apple and a yogurt and some cheese. I'm sorry? Who doesn't know how to eat. I just spent the last 6 months learning how to eat post surgery you stupid bitch... I'm pretty sure (sarcastic here) that I know how to eat...The longer I'm around her, the more pissed off I get. She sits just outside my office. I block her but somedays... when she's particularly christian... I can't.
And... today's song of the day is Paramore-Decode. Even though this song was apparently written for a man... it sometimes seems like I should be singing this to me about me.
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