Dont Fall Asleep!!

I'm listening to our Chancellor talk, trying to motivate 300+ employees and failing miserably! She is using term like "flow stoppers." I understand and also don't understand. This is what has always separated me from others. Her flow stoppers are my motivators. Where did this talent in me come from? Did my parents do this by embedding some kind of special talent? or, is it something that is just inside someone.

Fear is a huge motivator for me.  If I am afraid... by God, I'm going to do everything in my power to conquer it.According to her chart, I'm a winner lol! You would not believe how lucky I actually am. I have put myself in situations that a "normal" person would never be able to deal with.

So, I'm guessing that because these things come naturally to me, THAT is the reason I find sitting thru these "motivational speeches" absolutely miserable!

I have a hard time blocking everything in these situations! All around me people are getting motivated, but sadness, so much sadness around me and I feel that more than anything. I always used to wonder why when I was at these things, why I always wanted to cry. Now I understand, it's the people around me... so filled with sadness. If I consciously think to block, I can do it. If I'm floating, not grounded, I can't, so, I'm going to work on ground and see if I can block the overwhelming sadness.

A little bit, I can block but not all of it.  These "community" things make me miserable!!!

Then, the day took a turn...

Then real reason for the day... healing.  My friend... who is lost... just plodding thru life, needed me.  After we have a nice lunch and I am able to lead her in the direction I think she was seeking from me... she says to me, "Why have we never talked about this before?" And, I told her, we had touched on it... but she wasn't ready.  The time for her to get ready is now because we're gonna loose her to the darkness if she doesn't start healing.  Now is the time my friend.

And then, my other friend... called with wonderful inspired news.  Can't wait to work with her and see where it takes us...

And... a fabulous adult party tonight that I can't wait for. 

All in all, another good day!!!